July 31, 2020

Expectation VS Anticipation

I am really trying to learn how to anticipate the move of God, while not expecting it to look a certain way. Let’s be honest, life is a whole mess of unpredictable outcomes. I really want to grasp that God will move, but it won’t always look the way I understand or want it too. So many times in my life I have had expectations that have fallen flat to the ground. It always leaves me devastated. So I have been dialoging with God on ways to have faith, without filling in the blanks with my own plan. And that is when He introduced me to the concept of expectation…

July 17, 2020

The Walk Of Sleep

Sleep walking, am I awake or dreaming? Something that is less commonly known about me is that I sleepwalk. Oooh, scary right? I’m that creepy girl in the movies that walks with a dead gaze as if she were in another world. But in all seriousness, I started sleep walking as a child. My mother can account for that fact. I scared her half to death lurking next to her bed one night while I was still asleep. She told me to go back to bed. Like the obedient child I was, I listened even in my sleep and meandered back to bed. Fast forward to around two years ago,…

July 10, 2020

Sometimes Joy Sucks

“Joy is a sacrifice…there is joy in the sacrifice. There is joy in the suffering. Because it is in the suffering that we find out what is real. When we test the limits and can bend no more under the pressure of the pain. God meets us there. There is an ugly encounter with the truth of reality. We can choose to accept it and embrace it. Or we snap. If the latter is chosen then all is folly. But the former brings us dependence on God. That dependence leads to an unearthly joy that is chosen and not felt in the midst of the pain. To choose joy is…

June 26, 2020

Be Like Job Already

Job 19:1-6 Then Job answered and said: “How long will you torment my soul, And break me in pieces with words? These ten times you have reproached me; You are not ashamed that you have wronged me. And if indeed I have erred, My error remains with me. If indeed you exalt yourselves against me, And plead my disgrace against me, Know then that God has wronged me, And has surrounded me with His net. NKJV If you are like me, then you grew up hearing about how blameless Job was. In my mind as a child, Job was this perfect person who sat quiet and docile while everything near…

June 17, 2020

Rise Up Gen Z

Jesus is my home, but He is also my wilderness. What if I told you that Jesus craves adventure even more than we do? Well, its true. God is the Lord of all, even the unknown. The unknown parts of the world, and the unknown parts of me. As I discover Him, I discover myself. It’s this constant tension that lives in the very deep parts of my being. Wanting to know the world around me to understand myself. And God fulfills that within me.  I’m not just talking about a religion here but a real person. Jesus has a fathomless depth that could be searched for eons and never…

May 29, 2020

Down To The Potter’s House

Jeremiah 18: 1-4 the word which came to Jeremiah from the Lord, saying: “Arise and go down to the potter’s house, and there I will cause you to hear My words.” Then I went down to the potter’s house, and there he was, making something at the wheel. And the vessel that he made of clay was so marred in the hand of the potter; so he made it again into another vessel, as it seemed good to the potter to make. NKJV —————————————————————- In January, I went to a conference called Movement 2020. It was a blessing to gather in the new year with fellow believers and to see…

May 22, 2020

To Forget Is To Perish

Why do I forget so easily? My Brain seems as uneasy as shifting sands in a windstorm. PEACE! Part the clouds. There are the stars and the stillness again. Then I forget in complacency what I first remembered. Why do I forget? PEACE! Hold on to the thread, a constant comfort. A guide wire to the path. PEACE! Don’t forget, if you are in constant living of the peace, it can’t escape. The unending presence wont allow forgetfulness. Why do I forget? Because I do not abide. In complacency I stray across the sands of my own mind. Go back, don’t lose the thread. Peace and abide. ————————————————————— I wrote…

May 8, 2020

Standing In The Rain

This new existence exhausts me. It’s like the very air is suffocating. I don’t mind the long days and evenings at home. It really isn’t that different from my normal life. But the atmosphere is toxic. When I get on Facebook, I see the confusion and strife. When I go out, I see the concern and paranoia. I’m not saying it’s unfounded, it’s just a lot for this empath to process. I feel everything, down deep into my bones. Some days it’s all I can do to not curl into a ball and give up. Do you ever wish the constant ness of life would just cease for a moment?…

May 1, 2020

Defining BSSM

Hello! Today I am going share more about BSSM. BSSM stands for Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. It is a nine month long program focused on leadership training, and transformation of the individual. Bethel is all about seeing people released into their God given identity and bringing God’s kingdom to earth. Some of their main values include love, honor, purity, and relationship. The whole focus of the school is to lead people to a place of thriving in the Lord, helping them to excel wherever God calls them to, and seeing healthy relationships and community established. One of the biggest things I am excited for is the BSSM community. In…

April 24, 2020

My Wheat Valley

Welcome! I want to give some insight into my blog name. My Wheat Valley is a place the Lord has made for me. In October of 2019, while I was spending time with the Lord, He dropped me into the middle of this circle, surrounded by high stalks of wheat swaying in the wind. The wheat was so high, I couldn’t see anything else other than the top of mountain peaks in the distance. The sky was lavender. I felt such peace in this vision I was having. “This is your safe place” the Lord told me. “This is where I want you come when your overwhelmed, when you want…