November 21, 2020

Mud

Mud. I felt is squish through my socks as I dragged my foot through the gravel. Wednesday night was raw in the best way possible. I was under a tent in the dark, worshipping Jesus in the mud. I love mud. It gets everywhere, even all over my dress as the hem dragged behind me. I danced in the mud and gravel with all my might, as praise was roared around me. I have never been happier to throw a pair of torn socks away. A stage. Saturday morning, I walked into Bethel’s sanctuary to dance for the first time. A five year dream was fulfilled that day. As the…

August 13, 2020

The Urge To Jump

Somehow, even when one pushes for and craves change, when that change comes it still leaves you feeling helpless. Like a downward plummet right after you jump. Even though you made the decision to jump, doesn’t mean that you can control the outcome. In that free fall, your left wishing for nothing more than to be on that safe ledge again. But scrambling for safety will only leave you panicked and the landing rough. Better to embrace the fall.  See you when I land. From me to you, -Emily Jacobsen 

August 7, 2020

The Last Goodbye

I feel the pain, will my heart stop beating? Sometimes it feels that way.  Goodbyes, why do they have to be a fundamental part of life? Every trip that I have come back from, every transition I have experienced, has left me with a goodbye on my tongue. I wish for nothing more than to spit it out.  Every missions trip has ended in tears for me. I grow attached and I long for those people and places. It has been over three years since I have left Cambodia… My heart feels physical pain every time I remember the friends and family I left behind, so far away from me….

July 31, 2020

Expectation VS Anticipation

I am really trying to learn how to anticipate the move of God, while not expecting it to look a certain way. Let’s be honest, life is a whole mess of unpredictable outcomes. I really want to grasp that God will move, but it won’t always look the way I understand or want it too. So many times in my life I have had expectations that have fallen flat to the ground. It always leaves me devastated. So I have been dialoging with God on ways to have faith, without filling in the blanks with my own plan. And that is when He introduced me to the concept of expectation…

July 17, 2020

The Walk Of Sleep

Sleep walking, am I awake or dreaming? Something that is less commonly known about me is that I sleepwalk. Oooh, scary right? I’m that creepy girl in the movies that walks with a dead gaze as if she were in another world. But in all seriousness, I started sleep walking as a child. My mother can account for that fact. I scared her half to death lurking next to her bed one night while I was still asleep. She told me to go back to bed. Like the obedient child I was, I listened even in my sleep and meandered back to bed. Fast forward to around two years ago,…

July 10, 2020

Sometimes Joy Sucks

“Joy is a sacrifice…there is joy in the sacrifice. There is joy in the suffering. Because it is in the suffering that we find out what is real. When we test the limits and can bend no more under the pressure of the pain. God meets us there. There is an ugly encounter with the truth of reality. We can choose to accept it and embrace it. Or we snap. If the latter is chosen then all is folly. But the former brings us dependence on God. That dependence leads to an unearthly joy that is chosen and not felt in the midst of the pain. To choose joy is…

June 26, 2020

Be Like Job Already

Job 19:1-6 Then Job answered and said: “How long will you torment my soul, And break me in pieces with words? These ten times you have reproached me; You are not ashamed that you have wronged me. And if indeed I have erred, My error remains with me. If indeed you exalt yourselves against me, And plead my disgrace against me, Know then that God has wronged me, And has surrounded me with His net. NKJV If you are like me, then you grew up hearing about how blameless Job was. In my mind as a child, Job was this perfect person who sat quiet and docile while everything near…

May 29, 2020

Down To The Potter’s House

Jeremiah 18: 1-4 the word which came to Jeremiah from the Lord, saying: “Arise and go down to the potter’s house, and there I will cause you to hear My words.” Then I went down to the potter’s house, and there he was, making something at the wheel. And the vessel that he made of clay was so marred in the hand of the potter; so he made it again into another vessel, as it seemed good to the potter to make. NKJV —————————————————————- In January, I went to a conference called Movement 2020. It was a blessing to gather in the new year with fellow believers and to see…

April 24, 2020

My Wheat Valley

Welcome! I want to give some insight into my blog name. My Wheat Valley is a place the Lord has made for me. In October of 2019, while I was spending time with the Lord, He dropped me into the middle of this circle, surrounded by high stalks of wheat swaying in the wind. The wheat was so high, I couldn’t see anything else other than the top of mountain peaks in the distance. The sky was lavender. I felt such peace in this vision I was having. “This is your safe place” the Lord told me. “This is where I want you come when your overwhelmed, when you want…